Explaining to his Wife
He pushed open the door into the
kitchen, the mud from his hand marking where he had touched. A few
drops of rain were in the air but he hesitated at the threshold.
Inside, his children sat at the table.
One had a pencil and was scribbling on some paper. Next to the
range his mother sat in her senility. His wife was the most
animated; moving from pot to sink, labouring over the dinner.
They all knew that it was hard times
elsewhere. They had heard that in the next county families shorn of
dignity had suffered themselves to go up to the big house and been
turned away. Prices had increased at the store. On the road, shabby
men were moving on.
But there in the kitchen the dinner
was nearly ready. The smell filled the air and all present felt that
comfortable expectation of a meal in preparation.
Everybody felt that except for the
husband at the door. He waited until he could catch his wife's eye.
She was busy and it was no easy task to get her attention, but he had
something to say to her that could not be said in front of the
children. At last she noticed. He pointed outside with his head.
She picked up a towel, wiped the
surface, threw down the rag, tidied her apron and bustled her way
outside.
A moment's silence as the two of them
stood together in the rain.
“I've looked at the crop.”
Neither of them showed any hint of
emotion or reaction.
Then, plainly: “It is spoilt.”
“There's nothing to sell,” he
said, “and nothing to eat.”
“You can't sell it if it's black,
but we can still eat it, we've eaten worse.”
“We can't eat it.”
“Why not?”
“It isn't there.”
“You'll have to plant something else
then.”
He was hurt. “It's August already
and anyway we don't have any seed.”
“We'll buy some then.”
“With what?”
“We'll sell the cow.”
“We damn well won't. We're eating
that beast, and the bitch too most likely.”
“Then what?”
“I don't know.”
Silence.
“There's blackberries. And
limpets.”
The man walked inside and washed his
hands. He touched his mother on the shoulder and sat down next to
his children. Then his wife served the dinner.
